Like a pot
about to boil, I’m getting ready for the onslaught of September church meeting
chaos. You know, people are back in the city. Holydays are finished for pretty
much everyone now. The stop and start of trying to make progress while key
people are “out of town” or “away from the office” turns into a more dependable
rhythm. Now the challenge is finding room in people calendars as their
obligations begin to kick in.
We all start
trying to plug our many interests and obligations into those boxes on the
calendar. Lynn and I did an exercise where we put all the things we’ve talked
about doing this fall – onto little pink and green and blue and yellow stickies
(her work, my work, our work, our chores, our play). There were so many of them
that we didn’t have a calendar big enough to crowd them all on. We delayed the
crunch by deciding to get a bigger calendar.
My stress
levels rise just thinking about it.
Here’s my
question. “How is getting stressed about it going to help me choose wisely and
be present in the day by day walking through of September start-up?”
“How do I
maintain the calm and centered self my holydays so carefully crafted?”
You make me
lie down in pastures green. You lead me through shady woods to sit beside
rushing streams. You call me to listen for wisdom in the whispering songs of white
waters and watch the rising mists for signs of the ancient ones’ presence.
You make me
taste plump berries picked off the bush – sunlight, earth, rain and wind
captured and squeezed through branches into bright red clumps of celebration. Life’s
sweetest joys – babies, weddings, feasts shared with old friends and new. Full moon intimacies, and conversations that
matter – all magically and potently tasted like berries bursting on the
tongue.
You lead me to
pull sweet onions from the ground to chop and mix with the eggs from the lady
down the lane. Your groundhogs and deer eat all the green vegies and leave the
tomato-laden branches for us.
You give me
not only these sweet embodied moments, but you gift me with memory and
imagination.
When the
multi-tasking takes over, will I pop a sweet memory into my mouth? Can I, just
for a moment, hear the waters fall? Will I, in the time it takes to draw and
hold a breath, smell the cool pine musk of the woods? Could I, in mind’s eye,
be transported to the laughter and loving scenes of summer, and recycle that
same love’s blood pumping through my heart, toes, eardrums then – now?
To notice
today how the wind moves the branch to throw sunlight my way. To remark how the
birdsong touches my heart’s hidden places. To inhale the scent of grilled foods
that spark hungers unmet. To see in bride and groom’s wet eyes the whole drama
of life passing in a tear’s drop. To drink in the sound of my love’s bright
laugh splashing smooth stones of fun across deep pools of hurt. To listen and hear
how the baby wails against the injustice of the circle’s ageless turning. To
fill my heart with life until it breaks and makes room for both the overwhelming
fears and the mysteries of healing courage.
Who needs
snapshots when all these wonders have been absorbed, inhaled, swallowed and
digested to become part of me - my cellular memory? These moments are the fat
cells my over-worked body and mind will feed upon when hungry soul gets
squeezed off the calendar’s squares.
All I need do
is inhale and stretch a limb to release the potent healing of green summer
moments. Lo, I am with you always.
1 comment:
Beautifully written, Rev. Reeve. I so look forward to seeing you in service again as the summer draws to an end.
Christina and Ryan
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