27th September Thursday 7:58am -4 degrees 3
bros falls
Arrived at the
River before sunset exhausted physically and emotionally.
Slept with our
clothes on in the tent. Morning frost makes me happy we harvested the tomatoes
last week.
My week off had
a 3 day bite into it. I’d chose to stay and help Lynn with the Labyrinth she
was making on the front lawn of the church. She really only needed moral
support. I was her gopher – doing very little actual digging. I left that hard
work to the women. Good strong women like Helena and Ina and Pat Remy and
Gloria. The kind of women at the heart of every church.
I tried to
treat those 3 days like days off – doing what I wanted at the pace that came
naturally instead of rushing from thing to thing. I skipped the Fall Feast
planning meeting and instead visited a friend recovering from burnout. Tuesday,
I couldn’t really skip the first Council meeting. I’d arranged a catered meal
for their welcome back. It was a luxury perhaps but a small thank you for the
thankless work and tough decisions they’ll need to make this fall.
Wednesday, I
could only handle about 20 minutes of the public meeting on Social Assistance
cutbacks. It makes me so angry that 50 people show up to fight the cynical
Provincial cutbacks to the poorest Ontarians. The same day the news was
reporting that 50,000 had taken to the streets to protest Spain’s austerity
measures. Will we wait until it’s too late – until we too have slid into the
clutches of the World Bank? The meeting left me feeling both sick to my
stomach and hungry.
In fact I felt ill
most of the day. Might have had something to do with the six cups of coffee
over breakfast with Evangelical ministers breaking out of their theological
boxes. I got to try to shock them with my take on Jesus, Noah, and our era’s
revelation of a multi=faith universal redemption.Great conversation peppered with laughs.
Did a couple
of runs to Bill and Marilyn Gilbert’s farm on the edge of Peterborough.
Developers had shredded the brush off a neighbouring field into a mountain of
mulch. I love how I could do a round trip from the downtown church to the edge
of town, load up a trailer of mulch, and be back again in 30 minutes. Small
city living.
Had an
afternoon tea with my new buddy Paul. He’s a professed non-believer and more
interested in soul questions than your average minister. He’s also – for some
mysterious reason - got the church transformation bug. Together we hack and
chip away at our assumptions and try to carve out words that might capture the
common ground between our secular and sacred values.
Like a verbal
game of squash we whack away at the ball of human purpose and pain, trying to
figure out the rules to a new game. It’s a game that those disabled by their
experience with, or fear of, religion can play. We’re a couple of left brain
guys talking about leaping the chasm into a right brain exploration of
important, essential, urgent questions.
Today I make
chili sauce. Today I’ve got ten thousand words to write, ten phone calls to
make, ten weeks of Sundays to plan, ten task on my overdue list crying for
attention. But today, with an act of will I put up a wall against the tide of
guilt, against the need to be needed, against the should and woulds and coulds.
Today, I’m gonna bottle the summer.
I’m gonna chop
up enough peppers to feed the world’s hungry. I’m gonna peel and cut onions
‘til I cry a river of sorrow for yesterday, today and tomorrow’s generations of
hurting children. I’m gonna squash enough tomatoes to be the blood, sweat, and
tears needed to feed our greedy insecurities. I’ll add enough chilies and
jalapenos to wake up all the delusional war-mongers and make them sweat out the
painful price of their profits. And I’ll cook it all up on a long slow simmer
til the kin-dom comes knocking at my door.
On long winter
nights and days too short to bring about the change planted in every open
heart, I’ll open up a jar and put it on my eggs and remember the long days of
sun when everything was green and growing and it seemed like Eden’s garden was
underfoot. I’ll slather the taste of sun’s abundant sauce on the lunch I take
so I can cram in back to back meetings. I’ll put it my jars on the pot luck
table where friends and enemies and strange ones come all with the same
hunger. We’ll put all our different
dishes on the round table and in the sharing taste the possibilities of next
summer’s hopes.
Today is
Sabbath. In the midst of too much, I’ll trust in the hunger of an empty day.
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