We’ve been
watching a BBC documentary on YouTube called The Big Silence about an
experiment conducted by a Benedictine monk, Fr. Christopher Jamison, in the old
country. He invited 5 very different and very secular people into an experience
of Silence.
The theory of
the experiment is that Silence is the most effective pathway to discovering
God. This spiritual practice is common to all religious traditions (except the
church of Rock n Roll of course).
Only one of
the five people describe themselves as Christian, although they all have
Christian backgrounds of some sort. Two in the group are professed atheists,
and the others describe their loss of faith due to different reasons.
They start
with a weekend retreat at the priest’s own monastery as a preparation for an 8
day retreat into silence at a historic Jesuit centre. They have opportunity for
both group instruction and individual reflection with the Fr. Jamison. All of
it is captured on film and their very frank reflections are quite revealing.
Back in their
own worlds after the intial wknd (resulting in some small positive results) the participants quickly stream back into
their busy, full lives. The camera catches them mid-stream and they talk about
their failure to bring silence into their worlds.
What I found
fascinating was the fear they expressed.
The priest had
instructed them that on their path to God in silence, they would encounter the
deepest part of themselves – the part that is often hidden and overlooked by
the busy work of the ego-self. He shared with them the teaching that to enter
into the full presence of God requires “a pure heart” and what we find as we
enter into this deep place is that our hearts are far from pure. We have mixed
motivations for our actions, our relationships, our passions and habits.
Our selfish
and selfless motivations get jumbled together and the things we tell ourselves
to keep going are not necessarily true. The masks we wear and show the world
can even appear in the bathroom mirror – so strong are the “truths” we use to
disguise our lies.
Again, don’t all
religions talk about breaking through illusion to find new eyes to see.
The priest had
instructed them that unless they went deep into this path – they risked letting
this part of themselves wither and die. (I love how Catholics use fear to coax
us closer to God.)
In my own
practice, I struggle to bring stillness into moments of my day.
Instead of
waiting to get to my physical place of retreat and peace on wknds or holydays –
why not use my powers of imagination to find that same stillness in my size 13
church? (wherever I stand)
One of the
challenges of Sunday morning is that some people are looking for that Stillness
and some people are looking for a more social experience of Community. These
competing needs are an oil and water mix.
Of course, to
try to get all the Stillness, or all the Community, we need in just one time
and place, is an unrealistic expectation.
I find that
while I get excited about packing all kinds of creative and fun worship experiences
into a service, I am also very sympathetic to those folks who are looking for
that quiet, meditative, island of peace in their week.
That still
place is a Sabbath place. A place of unbusy, empty, radical rest. A place where
our souls can let go of the worry and stress that fill us up, and be present to
the ageless Spirit that knows, that cares, that calls us into a Peace where
fear melts away in the flow of ageless, constant, love.
We capture
that place in our Sanctuary. The place of history and tradition where saints
have come to pray and sing and find the moral courage and spiritual resolve
they need. To put aside the selfish demands of the ever-needy ego – and listen
instead to God’s voice calling them into their soul’s quest – requires Sabbath
devotion.
For me, that
still place is an animal place. To be truly Still. To simply watch and wait and
listen and learn is to become one of God’s creatures.
Animals speak
only rarely. Most of the time they are Silent. Most of their hours are spent
quietly searching for sustenance. Or carefully keeping vigilance so they don’t
become another’s sustenance.
I need to be
so care-full. How can I stay alert to the worries, stresses, ego-neediness that
eats away at me? How can I remain mind-full, in mid-stream, of the predatory
nature of my busy, demanding world that would devour every ounce of soul in me
and still be hungry for more…?
Might I learn
to keep an inner Stillness that watches for the signs of soul-food. Could my
heart be ready, quietly waiting and open - even as I rush about – to drink in
what the Creator offers in this moment. To catch a breeze and not miss it. To
see the way the sun lights up a tree’s shady streetcorner respite offering. To
let the Natural world touch me and give me sanctuary in a glass of water. To
prayer-fully receive what the Maker offers in every breath, and to be reminded
in that receiving - of the creature-self I am.
It is from
this place that I desire to live. From this place my imagination can take me
into the problems, tasks, distractions that make up my day, my collecting and
crafting of the things I need. That we all need. In this place these tasks take
their proper place and proportion to the rest of my living. In this place the
balance of rest and work, art and service, getting and giving, listening and
speaking - find their fulcrum.
Today, the
alleycat pads once again into the adventure that is learning to become child-like in
order to see the kingdom under my toes.
thanks to www.wondergaze.blogspot.com
for the amazing images
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