What the heck
does that mean? In the back of my mind I have this idea that it means that
after the bullies have had their fill of things – in the end – one day – the
meek will get their chance, their due - the scraps left over from the party.
Once the
raping and pilfering and polluting is done. Once the empire crumbles and falls
and all of us are reduced to the same empty-handed existence – the meek will be
the ones who know how to exist without the toys, the comforts, the
conveniences.
Somehow, I
don’t think that’s what the Jesus dude had in mind.
I got news
last night that John Dare had died.
John was a
giant of meek-ness. Standing maybe 5’2”, he was large in my eyes. He showed up
in the back row of the congregation one day and never left. He helped out every
opportunity he got. He fit in with Bobcaygeon’s retired Torontonians and good
farm folk like a lamb among horses.
His
conservative church upbringing stuck with him and all my playfull,
free-wheeling interpretations of scripture never shook loose his father’s good moral
teachings. To work hard, be polite and generous (he tithed from his social
assistance cheque), trust in his Maker’s love, and find reason to rejoice in all situations. These lessons were the leather of the shoes John walked in.
John’s health
always tenuous. Suffering from a number of complicated ailments, he hadn't the
resources to treat himself with good food or vitamins. He seemed to me to walk out of the
pages of Dickens – a rich character clothed in poverty and ill fortunes.
He’d tell me
about collapsing on the roadside trying to hitch a ride to Lindsay or Fenelon.
Or, I’d hear about the latest rescue of John, falling off his bike and needing
the assistance of bystanders to revive him. We watched him one night at the
dinner table slowly fade into a heap – discovering after we’d called 911 that
he was Diabetic.
He had a
number of good stories – from army days, from cabbie days, from family life –
that would illustrate for me the life he’d endured and the lessons he’d
learned. One of my favourites was the story of how he learned to swim.
An army
sergeant knew that the biggest obstacle to being relaxed in the water was the
fear of going under and not coming up. The sergeant got John to practice at the
poolside going underwater and holding his breath. No swim strokes, no kick and
crawl. Just timing how long John could hold his breath for at a time.
Once John had
plateaued at about sixty seconds, the Sargeant asked John how
many seconds he thought it would take him to crawl on land across to the other side of the pool. When John said maybe ten or twenty seconds, he ordered John into the pool, told
him to go underwater and crawl to the other side. And that was how John lost
his fear of drowning and learned to swim.
And I guess
that’s how John got through life too. When you lose your health. When you lose
your ability to hold down a job. When you lose your family. How do lose your
fear of living? How do you face another day of loss?
John knew
there was a way to live without the comforts of health, wealth, or cuddles. He
knew that beneath the surface of “things to have and hold” he could swim quite
happily from one day to the next.
I take for
granted the fresh air of three square meals, cash for comforts, and loved ones
that will take me in. I take for granted the strength in mind and limbs to keep
me getting out of bed to put in another day of work. I don’t think about these “things”
I have any more than I think about breathing.
It seems to me
that John, and folks like him, know how to go from day to day with just a few
deep breaths. Beneath the surface of things lies the kin-dom where all God’s
relations, all deep connections, dwell. The meek swim well in the world where we enter into the communion of
prayer. The place that opens us to the love everlasting.
It’s the place
where the roots of all living beings intertwine. It's the kin-dom that feeds
what’s on the surface. But because I spend so little time there - I trust it not.
Scrambling and fearfull on the surface of things I suck up all the air my lungs will hold, forgetting
that ever-present breathless place where my soul swims in dreams towards the
death of fear.
“So far as
things to have and to hold are
concerned, everyone is poor alike.
And so far as any need of them is concerned, all are
rich alike.
But the
advantage will be all on the side of those who, neither having nor needing, do
not desire them.”
George MacDonald “The
Warlock O’GlenWarlock” 1881
Blessed are
the meek, for theirs is the kin-dom of God. Today, each and every day, the meek
know they must depend on the good graces of other human beings. Today, each and
every day, the meek are them that give thanks for their daily bread – not
knowing where tomorrow’s bread might come from. Today, each and every day, the
meek trust in the Source of love – knowing better and more keenly than the
bullies the cruel sting and bitter taste of life’s offerings. Humble, thankful,
enduring with open heart – expecting nothing and offering everything - the meek
claim the kin-dom as their inheritance today.
Thanks John
for all your gifts.
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